The Rape Album Lyrics

01 Kick Rocks

Where's your faces?
The makeshift lifting up lines from basic
I'm bet on better things while your wings only rock over laces
It's a simple man lifted power lever pull blindly made decisions not clever enough to rule
Diss me dog. I'm judged easy sleeve-bearing what shouldn't be
But enough to ground any of your stupidity
I live it literally with no speech, kid
Wild in style but so called beneath it
You never seen shit outside the horse blinder your man's white tee did.
I count to three, miss. Your biting, playing wolf but sheepish
Running with scissors when equilibrium can't peep it
You flirting with baby fat still. You punch like a punk at will
Grasping at rememberance and ignorance
Blurting sentences when you can't figure shit
This my little kids is metropolis on pop turned adjective
Fit for friends with their neighborhoods up lost where the magic lives
I'm tattled on by songs under par, little long leash gone
Intersect in the streets of the city, getting giddy when cars come along
Welcoming to the basement. Smoke filled sit and complacent
Where men make mockeries out of emotion-shown faces
The same love you let leak sense for blood when the predators taste bleak
And to bed is the best cause resting straight sweeps you off feet
I learned well you should see the old Josh the story tells
And fake in a stance then to blend, migrating when majority fell
At least I'm strong on a constant rocking science, scene similar
The regular act is minimum, my mind only opens wrong for feminine
But as long as these women live I'll fall free from my censorship
And fuck every psyche that betters then numbing the title where emo lives
You wanna lay shots when you rock, rocking bitter to go pop
Push me pussies, Baltimore flat-lines to your EQ and I'll take what you got
It's usual and approved that you're unsuitable
I refuse any blemish you create on this music that you call beautiful
And let it get dangerous, let you into the lives where the strangers live
And see yourself hurt for the first time following the realm of fame when these kids kill
Still…



The moves are made for the luck of the fucked faces standing in placement
Mention majority turning quotes into jokes adjacent
I'm impatient with a team. They form to fit a label illiterately
Playing in old titles, douching in bold "Hip Hop" spit it at me
I'm never claiming on a constant, jack-strap in a box of nonsense
And the little ones are playing with plastic with no possible progress
This is not less than what's "Hot"
Claimed when your firebox says via subtitles of who rocks genres
I'm just being honest Ma
Never had to play possum, Pa
Not many to ground me. They ran with a gun in hand and I stand partially proud founding
No clown. Call it how you see it. Arrogant or speechless
But I'm not the one advocating skill by describing music as feces
You glorify the contra I know
Capital is a monster mind, hollow
Ran by puppets who play right into where the little one's minds follow
Running with chains where the slaves live
Many men mocked when saying they made it showing smoke and mirrors when they follow in the realm of fame
And these kids kill
Still…

02 The Hulk

I've been broke down, fell off, shown a lack of respect
Watch these black people and white people all ring each other's neck
And found I'm tired of being tired
And I'm tired of emcees with wack
Club money rhymes, betting you get clapped up with a gat
Like you're a gangster
You ain't scaring shat
Stop spelling your name, shut the fuck up and rap
Rap is not about your metallic necklace
Or your alphabetical silicone letter of how big your girl chest is
Check this
I spit funkier than arm pits and smoother than Jergens
Work my ass off and smell better than anybody's anti-perspirant
I grew up
Not near a block that's hot but I still put it down
No gimmick saying I shot some cop but I can still rock
You get it now?
I don't give a fuck if you figure you hold your nuts to look bigger
Take a picture with your blunt knife and liquor
Holding something shiny to make you look richer
I don't care if your ice grills enough to barbecue in the winter
Or if your best friend's African American
And let you call him a "nigga"
(Break)
Where's the censorship now?
With all the false status happening
Goin platinum off drug trafficking or you can just put your name in your rap again
Matter fact I'm spent and I don't want you next to me
I'm impatiently waiting to see emcees fall out of a spelling bee
This is not witty to me
You don't sound slick you sound mispronounced
I guess it's hard to talk all that shit with all that shit in your mouth
It ain't fresh and new it's diluted from the people you watch
You only rhyme cuz a rapper with a sitcom did the same shit on Fox
Freak of freestyle with Nitol tactics
Cuz hearing your flow is better than the baddest feather pillow mattress
All rap is is actors trying to fake the funk
It's an industry pretending to be whatever you want
This is not a form of music, it's a form of being used
Anyone broke, with a gold chain got sucked right into it
Claim your fluent, tongue-runner
Heavy jesus-piece stunner
You're not a rapper, you're just a waste of 70% water.
(Break)
So you wanna be a pusha
Rather be the people you read about
Guns got you walking proud
Before you wouldn't come out your house
Backwards bullshit
Claiming you hard but afraid to pull it
If you were so confident, you could speak to me without a bag of bullets
Fantasy gangsters, your guns are ghost anyway
Caving into a thug nation
Because you're tired of getting picked on every day
But you lied about a glock
You're not the kind of cat to kill or be killed
Claim you would die for your block
But you used it as a sanction
Claimed your soul, but you should thank it
Your crew let you be lying harder
Using hoods as security blankets
I'm claiming cover-up cuz thug fashion's in season
Helps you pretend to be men cuz you can't find a better reason
To stand up or shut up
You wanna be tough than take the blame
Admit your insecurities make children kill for following fame
I wanna be original
You dress to a text to be the best of a new found glory
But look exactly like the next
Lost patience
Switch your style up to feel less racist
But you're in the in crowd now
And being down ain't shit, is it?
Face it

03 Danger Ape

I live in the lining of your red bricks
Where your superheroes don't mean shit
And the binding of their capes are no more than clothespins and sheets on the back of a bitch
Fuck your authority
We got a mass of frat boys dressed in blue
Who could give a fuck if you're black or white
Cuz the badges are better than you
Sit down if you can't take it
Wash clean
Better a book to read
Fuck your thoughtfulness brand of bible and join the team
This world is better stupid Barbie
That's what we do
Soon enough our women will be in Target in packages, see through
Doesn't matter, we're filled with addicts and the tragic in this world that's massive
But it's looked right over if you're black or lower class
And the masses say that
God will respect me
Ask him to save and protect me
And then I can call gay men faggots and touch the innocent incorrectly
It's hard to believe a book written by a man no better than me can write a riddle
To make people fight over what form of peace to believe
Now we look for the wrong reasons to make new friends
I guess we could use another Jew like Jesus again
The new danger

(Break)

I found my way out, you kings stay caped for the gust under wings
Wait for the chance and glances of aviators
Hoping these birds will sing
By any chance of glory holes in this life is for whoring
So break me off and butter me up because my friendships get boring
Parents must be tossing in caskets
These basket cases crying
They stop it and say I love you
Cuz they all feel like lying
This is a given of best betting against the sane
The streets that parallel and box your pride in now for and only area claimed
We work strictly for the art and change
But only if brought fame and flex visuals
Showing shiny teeth towards any anarchy tamed
I'll take this stoop and look forward to fix this jux with a meta-listen
The stolen synonyms of your fundamentals won't help you to reach my distance
We don't fly we fake ignorance in mirrors
Reducing to bones
Rubbing anxiety buying out these females now indulge into crones early
Don't touch this pretty parched
Diluting darlings in writtens
Let the sins get serious and keep barking
These men more like kittens
The new danger
New danger ape
The new danger
New danger ape ape ape

(Break)

I'm ghost
Try to trace me until you tumor in your own lose
You idiots play babies in ball pits of synonyms and have smoking to do
Call it crazy
Dismissive in my arrogance and bliss in these news
Another murder in Baltimore
I guess we got some bragging to do
Let's raise some babies on this air polluted ballooned ego to fume
Get our gremlins set for the proper path now
To consume with these goons
Militia set for the maternal
Bald hawk (hock), incorporate, move
Money exaggerates math
Our baths are filled with presidential fools
We use icons for focus
Pass the Pops and play these words quoted
Making marionettes of little minds based on the memories of magazine poses
Paste this perception
Pass this clause making collage
Smell every marker and stagger off while you're tagging broken down walls
They live in a stash with stupid and pet negative
It looks so cute, set repetitive, debt to sedative
Now psyche can't even catch up to you
Now fight, cast this box, melee bruise from abuse
I'd rather die knowing I tried than give two shits about you
The new danger

04 Firebox

I just wanna perform and I just wanna live
I just wanna make music without music making me sick
I wanna raise hands to fist without rare jewels or fake tans
Or my friends acting like my man when they're really just rap fans
Without the scared and shook
All acting like thugs
And the people that never practice peace
But still claim on love
The ones that idolize their jobs of coke sales or frail they robbed
To symbolize their success with awards high
Thanking God
I'm not free for your friendship
I've found lost middles that are endless
Which is more my way to mend the reasoning of failing trying to pen it
Watching the feminine solely
Grip at the status for masculine to hold me
And the men that match women by smacking em cuz their father left them and they're lonely
I will not become inferior to the likes of trying to mirror you
Mimic an imperial view til I'm an individual
Generic as a box of cereal
It's the few and unusual that thank beautiful in music
Means a metal crest on the plastic chest of the woman they're abusing
And I'm not done
Nor will I ever be
Feather free pig fly to better me
Before I ever whether see a thug emcee will never out clever me
I'm not done with this music
I spit on slums and refuse it
The ones who use guns as their blueprint
And wonder the abuse that our youth gets
Let's glorify fists now
Gun talk with mouths full of crystal
And wonder why children run into high schools with pistols
Can't believe you did that
Trick loves the kids
But his shit's wack
Claiming you make music for the jail cells and you're bringing hip hop back?
You should thank the thoughts that I bought time with in awkward silence
To suppress the mess and startle the birds to fly with a new science
I'm more defiant than the fencing at those that clench at attention
Eating the marks from your lead sentences to taste the fame that you mention
I work word play and hand gestures to scatter the flock senseless
Who rather their wings of flight be used as balance to walk with better leverage
Scare-tools who air glues stagnate since dare fools who care too much to fair you
And scream with rare fucking jewels
Claiming a hater so holding back
Polite is for candy-coating wack
Ego grown to the point of elephantitis and they all need fitted caps
It's easy to spot them with the hot box they're trapped in rotting
Nodding their empty skull to the dullest stories of who shot em
I spit on you strangers
Raised into wrist bands and b-boy danger
Rock and presence made my present essence posing in anger
I'm iller than you'll ever be
Feather free pig fly to better me
Before I ever whether see a thug emcee will never out clever me
And I'm not done

(Break)

See they're living on crack salaries
And selling false realities
The crooked hat is a symbol of how you wear your personality
It's the ugly and the beautiful
Attitude to people new to you
Thank yous and being polite are becoming so fucking unusual
It's the men kissing they mothers
And calling these women hoes
Women that feel the need to fulfill, so they wear less clothes
All the five year old bastards misled and skipping classes
The no love souls who lose themselves and follow the masses
People that call me with favors I never used or asked for
Hold it against me when I got a pocket of pennies and they're feeling poor
Evil eyes from the false preaching I passed
I guess I'll never last
With the world's juggle of what's bigger…jesus or breast implants
I'm a freak in this jungle of people fighting for "I love yous"
Cuz I hurt myself to numb the kisses so it can feel fake when I hug you
You a liar or a folder, hot boy or no limit soldier
Stop playing by instigating your clique is reigning
This shit is over

(Break)

I just wanna make a difference to the different that care to listen
But not be as different as they claim cuz they favor fame being schmitten
I balance on this concrete, roaming stone-faced mother unhealthy
Analyzing thoughtfulness "last of the few"
Like Teddy tells me
These kids are missing bliss and anger in music that's beautiful
Screaming "bad boy" for a quick cool cuz the new danger is chewable
You couldn't pay me to be that lazy
Raping faces for sake these day light deer are in cages
Man, you're taking candy from babies
I don't believe your blueprints and gun talks or threats to use it
I don't fear your place to do it
You can't even face your own music
It's all delusional, illusionist using unsuitable futures, jest that life's won by cars that sparkle
And remarkable pugilist
Growing to flee from pain
So teens watch emcees and train at false strengths insane enough
To start calling life a game
No patience to raise, we entertain by wasting the time we've got
Divert our attention, bring out the cave man
Watch the fire in a box

05 Baltimore Stop Crying

(verse)
You poor babies stagnate in mirrors and practicing faces of fear at home
To mask the false confidence innovating in music i finished years ago
All self named kings of Baltimore, well let them have it
Give em all rings and let them fail together like a team rap captain planet
And keep crying , tough thugs mimic in comfort , what is this?
When your shows pertain of you rapping for other rappers you should try a different business
Don't start bitching hypocritically throwing tantrums on people
Like "he sold more then me?"(crying) and you consider me emo?
Stop crying, figure out the math of why you don't sell, life's a lesson
Most of ya'll are grown with kids, by now you'd have a better sense of self perception
Hamming like super heroes, too bad your CDs don't fly off shelves
Stop your fictional performing, your fake names and go play house with somebody else
Cause you ain't fly, you're a hack, maybe you should take hip hop more casually
When people defend your best songs by saying you have a nice personality
Maybe you should quit, stop throwing fits and work on yourself for a lil bit
And if you gotta make a mockery of music at least stop claiming the city where i live...
Baltimore Stop Crying....

(Break)

Sit back and catch the feed, crawling pissed, bottling fear alone
Tunnel thought coughing up tears of flack unless following peers of drones
Just jealousy smack talk like they're better than me but never confess
You thank god for unoriginality or rappers wouldn't know how to dress
Keep the flame a shine with the fake diamonds and your keeping kiosk in business
So to say sunglasses at night fight anxiety or at least hide it from witness
But hawk-eyed from a distance i can tell your blissful existence fell
Paying legends to get on record an still cant get that shit to sell
I've done laps around your act, my mind-state ain't been that young since fifteen
Maybe you're a pawn in this game, stop wasting history, get a different dream
You live in a reality of play conceptions nobody believes
With a war cry of a shady city that reasons with intellection of trees
Hot like fire apparently, posing gassed, following these trends
Playing fort in false infamy basing your illusion on friends
Rhyme scheme in a nutshell dodge criticism by blending with them
And whine from the impressions adorned by the expressions of simple men
Baltimore Stop Crying

(Break)

Sit these boys under blankets, its Baltimore babies an they speak so cute
Crying mother with hands over mouths of tantrums tandem to bruise
Little spittle smeared tears, feared the delinquents moves, who knew
An emotional wreck since kindergarten could make better music than you
Now we're grown but still cat and mouse, doctoring lyrics you don't know
Playing the role of superman but still starving sitting stagnate in your homes
Still claiming cities king feigned with vainglorious inner sight
Cause fantasy's not just a name, It's a way of life
Home of the shady, where catch phrases are pitiful and the little dudes ridicule
Hiding the slightest vulnerable visual by miming the faces of criminals
You're sad, slept on, cynical, but choose to ignore it
Cause you make noise for the art, and cause nobody pays you for it
So make like you're fly in the flocks, featherless ugly little thing
Play the bearer of our crown with no crowd when you enter into rings
Post up passive, parlay esoteric towards the terror and cling
With the barren gaggle of chicks cackling chirps while i sing
Stop crying


06 Dirt

(Verse)

Maybe you don't remember, but i'll take it back to the ovaries
They taught the fetal position, you couldn't even be more close to me
And i squeezed, called it cuddling to fake the feel
The impossible outside managed by imitating the real
That we have imagined, in the safety of a womb
And burst water and drown forever in these polluted filled fumes
And teeth, everyone's drowning with speech
Emotions? you're joking, relationships teach
To kill psyches to be sexy, you're getting pride from propaganda
I'd rather take my placenta with me then play highlander
And I'm not a disgrace, simply cause I'm not your face
I got to work on my own expressions to play off mistakes that i've made
So stop looking my way, stop calling me safe
Stop using delusion to ruin the days, that are crumbling
That's reality focus on real and compare it to the passion i feel
I wanted fire

(Break)

(Verse)

And i was filled with disappointment, i laughed and watched the ugly kids enjoy it
They would gag on the flavor they gas with mask and fake voices
And i can't even breathe
I'm a Capricorn i live for this shit you can clown in my pity
An this cities more then tits, it's not for the frail its blissful
Comatose off high heels drowning blame with a fist full
Of pheromones, inviting with eyeliner into your frame
Devil i don't even know your name
I know your shame, you're as in "you are" the frequent
I'm sick of these leeches caking face till their skin falls to pieces
A perfect picture, infected by the scene, and butterflies chill your skin until it turned green
Just put those emotions in a bottle,...... in a cage
And keep on counting backwards, till the worst days are over
And thank me for raping rules free and prove nobody's this good at being so fucking ugly

(break)

(verse)

I found kill em all, it was tattooed to skin, scrubbed out frailty that allowed you to let in
You can test it with candle scent, oasis or perfume
Create flames in your bedroom an label it virtue
You can taste your way through breath
The moment that sweat stresses out and you realize how bad you made this mess
Or you can watch people sleep because you heard it finds peace
But someone lied, you'll feel sick, and everybody will still be fucking ugly
No look at mother, look at mother and the hands you gave her
You let cannibals in the house and helped the tongues taste her
Did it hint on bliss trading for violence on my lips
I hope you get sick lusting darling, i don't want this shit
I want the sour taste with dark circles and pure love
Defined by drinking poison, and slitting throats in cursive
I wanna see my breath outside of some moisture in the air
So the matter could be a fact that i wasn't even there
I wanted fire


07 That's Rape

That's rape, which i don't get, I'm told everyday people are upset
But they tame their anger with chips, indulging, snuggling little pets
Saying they aren't talking about me but bet, "I'm not a ho" you'll regret
Catch yourself distracting with chest, shaking your ass with the best
Like the men told you to, folding daughters no clue where to go
Find them hiding in school restrooms performing fellatio
And it's not right its wrong, but you still write it in song
Cause in spite of the pride you play on, you're really not that strong
And if ignorance is bliss, these idiots are beautiful
A living excuse for delusional fools, it must feel great to be you
And that's where it's at, I'm comatose, live my life like a nap
And play hard to get and hide the feelings of not knowing where I'm at
Wonder why cause rappers rape, you can even get it on tape
But the boards made for playing the fame card no wonder they call this shit a game
Bowing to popularity for power, hiding unless money showers
That proves these tools are worse than monkeys, they're fucking cowards

(break)

(verse)

What about friendships, fake limps to improve confidence but it's in basic wasted
World of faceless girls, to makeshift for lack of cadence, stay raping playlist
Think, before you do it, the ink in your blueprints not made for music.
It's strict amusement, you fink the movement, saying hip hops dead so you can make excuses
Stupid, i hate to use it, refuse to lose kids on a view that's "cool". Spit sounds of nuisance
And a clown that's useless, gets to dance just to prove the shoe fits
Marketing, companies, another one to please till they suck it out from under me.
Fun to me? i was wondering why bass thundering would make you all act like monkeys
I'm not done but you better be, you're fake and weathering steadily
Let the letters regret on each word sentenced together to tether any clever speech
Too far in a rut to see this, figure eight of sheep following sheep is
Stampeding towards fames synonyms that are all based on the wrong thesis
It's money and jewelry hungry, topping each other to the point it looks funny
I should spit on you for claiming such literal fakes of a pitiful view, it's stunning
You're so gunning at life and building off shaking asses and killing
You should be ashamed you're flashing your chains in front of our children

That's Rape

(verse)

These fake, fake clowns, dilated plays made by raping sounds
Roll over, holler "what's up" and flirt, cause your canvas couldn't be more blank than white t-shirts
Play fake, children play doctor in "cool" creative missing
Hiding in shade with aviators on, but you're still listening
Crooked caps, pointing towards Hennessy for base, reality struck
Sober up, get a personality you stupid fuck
You stupid fucks are hanging consciousness out windows with mouths open
Awing in reflection safely behind walls that read "I'm just joking"
And waivers for haters claim static toward actual fact
This emcee has a backbone, and no fear to say your shit's wack

That's Rape


08 Super Survive

(verse)

King of the flat grounds remain nameless, this ain't back to the basics.
Claiming create on things said with made originators
You're making a blame for sake when the play house can't even hold more fakes
The noise they make matches their women's faces, it's plastic taste
That's ok i can see you with your eyes closed
Masses compose these children's city signs "slow" little did he know
The world is ignorant, say it everyday its starting to get old
Now I'm angry and frustrated as well as the definition to break a mold
I'm breaking, breaking down now, the city is wild
Take a safe and left breath and sigh restless, test this child
Lust for fun you whores bullet locked imagining wars
Playing possum, sleep mind got 'em, gangster wins, asshole scores
Watch your man, these kids got guns and plans
Or crack habits to smack towards sexual advance on giving hands
Where's your crew now? This city's giddy when foul
They take a walk in these streets and stay pissy, sit down

(break)

(verse)

Everyone speaks in sirens, this blacktop must turn these children violent
G.I. imaginations with toy guns, now brave heart felt in firing
Lusting, lollygag, who's to blame? you felt the fame?
The best to pretend and make amends with extended grimace face and fake name?
You're scared, just say you're scared
I got your card dog i create the music that makes you think you're rare
I seen a million thin skinned scrape on the way into this building
And cover abrasions with waving hands claiming they're all meant for killing
We got illusionist on our hands now
Can't walk a block without glock talk, hock 'em sit down
I was raised when you were raised
Similar era, but different days
Creating circa for a super survive in a dope to be in b-more drug maze
Man you all freak with gremlin profiles
You all walk with army men your scribble on papers been safe for a while
Take it for the danger you'll never grow into and rock
Next to true civilian's who make men out of the militia you mock
Sit down




09 Contra

(verse)

See I'm not gonna change, in every way they make it comfortable to just be the same
Look at neighbors and their faces how they mirror this fame
Blame the races as the day goes cause the racist need a scape-goat
They only sell it cause we eat it, plead the fifth but we seed it
Barely teething and need the gleaming pieces just to read it
Self defeating function man, life in a stunt
A parallel liberty, high cholesterol brunch, give them what they want
Meat eating media, leading vex glamour, oppose
Pro sanity. My pennies picture bigger breast and smaller clothes.
All for the same fallacy whether fiction or meta-toned
The tone is terror cause to care is something you feel too much to expose
If you're afraid of man just say it, destructive anyway
Eating babies, duplicating cannibals to get radio play
I don't care for your favorites these days, make a mockery of man
And take favor for evolution, it pays less to play the most dangerous ape
Example is g-unit, gorilla unit it's a good name, you monkeys are all the same
We see you flaunting your false alpha amazed in rage
So we'll be afraid an know you're the biggest monkey in the cage
Yay for you
You're still a monkey though
Realize you're still a fucking monkey

(hook)

No jokes, i point the finger
I bite the hand that feeds , i save taste and let it linger
I lick chops, i blow bloody kisses
I don't spit to look cool, i spit to prove this is
(repeat)

(verse)

Now look, look at their faces and how they're played
The men that lead the general and generically made
Fade towards the illiterate, focus tend this entertainment on clitoris
And fiddle with reproduction to ignorant to achieve shit on their own citizenship
I'm on this brink alone, you panic nellies grow bellies catered to your rap for clones
The foretold molds to blow then foreclose homes
Bankrupt role models exposed on the White Rapper Show
Did you all turn so low to grasp first and then ask after
Disappointing cats who thought you'd actually thought you'd have a new act for these factious
The path of Black Eye'd Peas appeasing press for clap factor
Facetious bastards who make me embarrassed to say that I'm a rapper
Now I'm a rapper who doesn't like rap, how hypocritical is that
Acting as a tact of something i can't back cause its irrelevance of fact
You napoleon complex cats i don't wanna steal your thunder
But you're not a bad motherfucker if your demographic's only 13 and under
Music is my savior, you rock chains to go pop
Knotting nooses with your music claiming "this is why it's hot"
De-evolution is all we got, and revolution's lonely shocked
Retribution is the pollution you claim is hip hop so i'd rather not

(hook)


10 Ink

(verse)

This is my autumn, my introduction to winter
This is my holiday juggle of morals to face paint a sinner
This is my battle of beautiful struggles, and card up the sleeve "I love you"s
My earthquake jenga head fuck, making cuddling so fucking uncomfortable
This is a missed breath from a misled kiss meant to fake emotions belong
My insecurity button that helps me pretend nothings wrong
Hiding paintings reflections, hidings affections to fight them in
And convince you to plant the seed of a flower that wouldn't grow in my environment
I just wanted to feel normal, important, warm
I wanted to feel cozy when it rained instead of depressed by a storm
Wanted a hand to hold when my heart skips, maybe worth one tear in your eye
I just wanted one person to love me so i wouldn't be so afraid to die
So when i sleep i rest, not a psyche to fuck
But a comfort to kill anxiety so i can swallow without it getting stuck
I just wanted to breathe so i pretended to be
Another reason you'll never learn to trust, or forgive me

(hook)

Breathe, just remember to breathe
I just wanted to breathe, you ever forget to breathe?
I forget to breathe, i forget to breathe, i forget to...

(verse)

This is the insecurity i choose to live in
This is the compulsive life i choose to obsess over whether forgiven
My anxiety forces lying sprees to cover up who i am
Cause i don't lie to others just myself i don't feel like a real man
I got youth problems I'm stubborn, i try to fit in other people's molds
To the point i can't be myself and every love i felt feels old
Its hard cause everyone's numb they built walls up to put their back on them
They suck virginity to pledge youth, I got hair on my face i don't know how it happened
But i loved you, all of you, everyone i touched
I fall for nothing left with nothing just to believe in your trust
I loved you, i loved you, i loved a stranger and a player
A forgetful fuck pecking at danger at danger at
You will never be it, you will, no, no, no
I will not be another you can kill it so kill it and let go
You wanna kick me while I'm down, stand on my back and be proud
Well who's the monster now, bitch? Who's the monster now?

(Hook)

(verse)

No more no more no more no more
Your life is worthless it means nothing anymore
Chop me down, go ahead i see right through
I wasted years, i wasted innocence on you
I remember i remember i remember yesterday
I remember i remember i remember you would say
Forgive me forgive me forgive me its to late
Forgive me forgive me forgive me it's to late
For butterflies, they flew away when you trapped them with a kiss
Why would you pluck the thorns for beauty and leave nothing to protect with
This is ridiculous, it's disgust or mistrust maybe cupid missed us
Or the arrow hit you so sharply the pain makes you pissed off
You can break for your fake piece, an artificial whole
You can't erase the bruises on your neck from that ten foot poles
This is my autumn, my life, my turn, my space we...
Butter me up for love, black black black heart baby

(hook)

(verse)

Who's the monster now, who's the monster now
Who's the monster now, who's the monster now
Who's the monster now, who's the monster now
Who's the monster now, who's the monster now
You can't touch me, i could care less about your love
I grew on strength all cause you couldn't fathom, strictly you picked on what i was
And build up, phony fake voice tone and all crazy
"Forgive me, forgive me" i got a black heart baby
Don't please me, you're see-through
I'll break free, i'll break you
No more mocking and blocking mental pictures pretending you're innocent
No more trusting stupid fucks my arms are closed you're never forgiven

(hook)

11 Number One

(verse)

It's not the way i wanted to train
Better meta, the redder the gain
This face is leaking, there's too much speaking
Bark is chipping these roots have faded too far for me to know who's fallen first
I felt it worst from my own pride refusing my face could come from dirt
But maybe I'm just as bad as you, maybe I'm judging success on a different curve
And in lieu of any kind of view or problem perception you may have in this half filled cup
Turning to a debate of whether I'm being drank or filled back up, eyes aren't enough
Words don't speak to me anymore, I'm busy being less then what i used to
To feel anything i have to take the few of you who've ever found anything in me beautiful
Let out slight subconscious but useful to my bemused views
Ways to wink at your existence in life as completely unsuitable
This is why they don't love me, carried from my mother all i know
Is five year old dreams of falling till now i've always slept alone
Somewhere down this track, part of me must have known there was no turning back
Not knowing how to act in my dreams have remedied in mornings remembering black
And emotions are brought by pain, if i don't bleed then i don't see
And it's hard enough for me to try to figure out what you all want me to be
Truth is I'm not myself I'm made from a mold that i borrowed slowly from all of you
I was hurt so i can only act like the people who know me
And I'm building myself up to fall again

(Siah Orsie)

And i bleed you dry
When all you want me to do is try
And i bleed you dry
Please forgive me
Please forgive me

(verse)

That's why i call, Nichole, you made me feel like i could belong
To a new family but you don't answer and i don't know what i did wrong except be me
I don't mean to smother but everyone thinks you're beautiful
They only like me when i do this shit, i wish i could be just like you
I can't continue this menu of emotions, all expect me to love
Don't follow the same rules i do, i break but i never give up
You're gonna die one day, I'm gonna die too
And then i"ll regret never knowing how to say this to you
It's for myself, I'm setting myself up to fall again
For my mom cause she'll be gone soon, i know he's calling
You might have been hurt, but i was only five while
You told me you knew you were going to hell, never say that to your child
I would never, i would never, i never thought i'd have to be that clever to get this brain pressure off
All cost i found there's beauty in my delusion it's been years since i been lost
That's unhealthy not to mention forced
I don't know how to start this
Expressing feelings and motives resulting in heartlessness
My acting is draining from where ever my genuine part is
Maybe i learn through ugly affection, you need to stop comparing hardships
It's not a game, stop blaming, i just want to live my life
I'm a grown man, i'm not going to continue being ugly and say its cause i wasn't raised right
Right or wrong, I'll say you did a good job mom.
I love, you need to learn to love back


Building myself up to fall again
Building myself up myself up myself up